I knew it was going to be hard getting back to you Ariya, I knew it was going to be hard coming back from my sickness and getting on with my life, I never knew it would be this hard. So daddy has lost another job, (this is the 4th one I have lost since I have gotten better) its very very sad because this was a wonderful job, and I loved what I was doing. What makes it all the sadder is it is not from something I have done in the present but by the past coming back to haunt me. In the past, when daddy was very sick this would have sent me spiralling into depression, but I am too strong now, I won't let this beat me, all I have to do is keep trying and eventually I will get to where I want to be, let me tell you how I keep going, when things get bad, and I feel all alone, when I feel lost and defeated when I feel like I can't take any more, I think of you little one, I think of how much you love me, and how much I love you, I think of where I need to be in order to see you again. And I get back up, and I try again, it doesn't matter how many times you fail Ariya, all that matters is that you keep trying. I will succeed, I will win and I will never give up. When daddy came back he was given a gift by your Nana, your Daddys Mummy, you have met her but you won't remember her, she held you in her arms when you were only 2 weeks old, but she gave me a gift and i want to share it with you, because it sums up everything I'm trying to say to you.
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| Renewed Hope. |
I Will Never Give Up On You!
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Your Daddy
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